Dear Ms. Wright,
I live with my boyfriend and although I love him, right now, I don’t like him. He lacks the common sense that I believe is necessary in a relationship and I find myself taking my frustration out on him. Sometimes I feel like I’m not cut out for a relationship. Every time I think I need to leave and just cut my ties, he will turn around and do or say something that will make me realize I can’t just give up and quit. He will do something that will wake me up to realize it is not going to be easy, I may not have what my parents had right away and that it will take time and effort. He’s a good guy, just last week he cooked dinner with candles and wine. But most times, I get bored and there are things that I want to do in life that a relationship may hinder. I feel like I’m the guy in the relationship. I think any normal female has it in her nature to give to others first and take care of herself last, but I’m the opposite. I don’t know what to do, if I should leave or go.
Lost in Love, age 24.
Dear Lost in Love,
Two things to which I have to bring immediate attention: A guy once quoted me a phrase that stuck, “To expect more than will ever come always brings disappointment.” Unfortunately, we can't expect a lot from men...hell, from anyone. What one may consider common sense, another may consider rocket science. Common sense can’t be taught, it is something you either have or you don't. Don’t expect him to know what you want from him, communicate it. Secondly, you implied that because he cooks nice meals for you, and the like, and because you aren’t as emotionally invested, that you are the “guy” in the relationship. We have to get out of the habit of assigning certain roles for men and women in relationships, myself included. Be careful of what you say as not to degrade the worth and work of some women or take away credit due to some men.
It sounds like the two of you are viewing the relationship with two different perspectives, but don’t worry, this tends to be very common. Most times, couples are quick to declare being on the same page with their mate, yet in fact, they’re on the same page in two totally different books, ya dig? If you want to be with him, it’s going to take a compromise. Since you’ve made the conscious decision to no longer be single, it’s time to start considering his wants and needs. If you don’t think you can do that, then love him enough to leave him alone. There are plenty of women out there that complain about not being able to find the man that you now have at home.
Before considering his, are you clear on your own wants and needs? My suggestion is that you both write out a list of life goals. I know you live together, but find some time to be alone and write one list of aspirations for the year and then a five-year plan. When you’ve both completed your lists, sit down together and compare. Yes, this sounds corny and typical, but trust me, it can work. Be sure that you’re making a personal list and writing down goals for you, as an individual. As you read over each goal, see how the other person can help or hinder you from obtaining it and make take mental notes. Make another list that encompasses what you want and need from a relationship. Post the lists on the refrigerator or on the bathroom mirror, a place where you both can refer to them often. Check things off as you accomplish them. For every goal you reach with his help, celebrate together and measure how much of a complement he is to your life versus a detriment.
You’re right in saying that most women are naturally givers and nurturers, but at this point in your life, it’s okay to be selfish. It's hard for some to fathom, but it's absolutely necessary, especially at our age. We're young. We can't possibly help others if we have yet to help ourselves. Now is the time to take care of and establish ourselves as individuals before we are placed in situations where it is our sole responsibility to help others, like marriage and parenthood. Remember, being selfish doesn't equate to being a bitch. So if it helps, instead of using the word selfish, let’s substitute it for sufficient. I have a friend who once said, “If you don't have anything to bring to the table don't even ask to be seated.” It’s perfectly fine to feel that loving you means more to you than loving him. But if that is the case, don’t waste any more of his or your time.
Good luck and remember to live, love, learn…and then repeat!
2 comments:
whewwww! this blog really hit home. I am going through something very similiar, forget similiar, the same exact thing. I feel like i have the perfect man, any woman would basically die for. I think he takes on the woman role more then I do, do not mistake that he is a bitch by any means. He is more romantic, is much more affectionate and is not afraid to be weak enough to display his emotions. I think that once we realize what we want as a woman then it makes it easier. I know what i want as an individual and i love my man to death, but i am scared to lose myself as an individual and don't know what to do with the US. Sometimes we play our own games, make ourselves bored because we want more then then is given. I am learning that what i have, is what i need and fighting the what i need, to get the what i want is the dumb part of us woman....sometimes.!
MBB much love to blog owner!
to Anonymous: do not say he is "weak enough to display his emotions". Indeed, he is strong enough not to be bound by your limiting thoughts or society's norms that if a man shows his emotions, he is being weak. Appreciate and love the man you are with.
to Ms. Wright: this blog/advice was "spot on" (as they say in the UK!). I love your perspectives and insights...they are "wright on." Keep up the great work...I enjoy reading about life through your lens.
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